A Clear Sign

I am pretty clear that I am no long his muse...But somehow, there is still very little hope that I am in his heart. I used that little hope as an excuse to text him,,I put aside my pride..I used all my strength to text him...And once again, he made it is very clear for me! No hope for this relationship... not at all...

I know exactly what is going on..but I am still confused myself...still questioned myself...what do I want from him? What do I expect from him? I wanna to be with him or not? what will happen to me if I keep stay by his side secretly? How do I feel when he is with another girls? And the thought keeps going on... what is he doing? why does he stay up so late (thank to whatsapp) why does he use whatsapp so  often? Who does he text to? to girls Ior boys? what are they texts about? Urgggggg.....I am so sick of it, so sick of it...!

 

A rude man... definitely a bad guy...

"When you see that someone tries to ignore/avoid you, you should never ever bother that person again" 

I will do that! I will practice that! I definitely can do that! I need to get back the COLD blood Van. The Van that doesn't care much about the things around if they don't related to her, the ppl she doesn't have any closed connection,,, Don't hesitate to take revenge on pple whom she hates...

That will do! Definitely will! That the only way I can survive! 

Next Time...

The love i had been waited for almost 2 years patiently, has come to the end. "when you decided to give up on someone, it isn't because you don't care anymore; it is because you realize that person doesn't care at all" - Love and Inspirational quote. This quote has hung around in my mind quite often recently. It puts my mind at ease at least...

Sad... a bit, hurt... not really (so used to it! Maybe!), cry.... no!

That person probably doesn't give a thought about me, so why should I pay too much attention to him?! It is not fair...!!! In this love game... I am the only one who suffer...

Still love him, still care for him a lot. Miss him like crazy but

• I am not allowed to admit it. 
• I am not allowed to say that I miss him a lot. 
• I am not allowed to show any care or affection toward him

Cause if I do, I don't think I can ever walk out from this... So rest in peace and farewell the unfortunate love...

Next time..

• Next time, I will guard my heart well....
• Next time, I will fall in love with someone who cares about me..
• Next time, I will go with someone who care about my heart dearly
• Next time, I will come to the one who keep his every single promise to me
• Next time, I will give my hand to the one who always willing to give me a hug when I need one..
• Next time, I will be truly happy in someone's love
• Next time, I will be someone's priority
• Next time, I will go to London Eye with the special person...
• Next time.....

Because I deserve all of those...
There are always good things for those who wait patiently and brave to drop hurtful things...